The Dragon Who Seemingly Has All of Lifes Answers Posted on February 15th, 2011 by Gad Asas in Psychedelics with [fetching…]
We’ve mentioned before that psychedelics bring the user to phases, especially post-ego death. One phase is where you tend to “keep wanting more” out of the experience.
You get a thirst of knowledge and newfound wisdom so you desire more. There’s not much wrong with that, of course, but it can go too far.
A personal example
When I was just learning about spirituality and enlightenment I thought I had found the fountain of knowledge through psychedelics. I was constantly looking for answers to life — that weren’t even there!
I had wanted the answer to “What is the meaning to life?” and then I would come out of the experience with a brand new question to ask for “the next time” I had a psychedelic journey. This question was often a more detailed and elegant question so I could get a more detailed and elegant answer.
I would constantly create new questions that I wanted to be answered, to get the answer and to go on doing the same ritual over and over again. But the answers never actually mattered, because they were all the same.
This went on for a good while, and I never really stopped to think that I was chasing myself. It ended abruptly with a stronger than my average dosage of psilocybin mushrooms. But that’s because I was unable to think of a question to ask.
I’m not here, however, to tell you to just take more. I want you to take something from my mistakes so you don’t repeat them.
The reason I was chasing answers was because I couldn’t believe the answers that I had been given already. Or rather, the answer that I was given time and time again.
There was always one answer and it was completely universal throughout my experiences in where I searched for any answer. The answer? It just is.
Our goal as people is generally to just “be”. And according to this answer, life just “is”. So it would seem, then, that we’re trying to be one with life. This didn’t make sense to me at all at the time. I was trying to bring reason into psychedelia.
Because of my boggled-mind, I didn’t accept the answer, it sounded too much like spiritual jargon to me. There just had to be a deeper meaning! Right? Not quite.
The truth is that there was never a deeper meaning and that I was actually creating the illusion of a “deeper meaning”. I wanted a deeper meaning because I wanted to simplify life, but through complicated means. This does not work, fortunately.
There seems to be some perverse human characteristic that likes to make easy things difficult.
Warren Buffet said that. He may not be an openly spiritual man, but he’s absolutely correct. Have you ever been on a project, trying it over and over and then realize that you’ve been doing it the hard way all along? We’ve all been there.
We tend to take these irrational actions with us wherever we go. There isn’t a fix or a cure for this except for self-awareness. Check yourself out every now and then, when you’re working hard. Are you doing it right or are you doing it hastily?
Remember that patience is almost always better than impatience. Slow and steady win the race. The same applies to psychedelic knowledge, you cannot look for something that isn’t there.
So take a step back. What are your goals within psychedelics? Are you looking for something? If so, how do you know you haven’t already found it? What if what you’re looking for doesn’t exist? Then you’d be wasting your time.